Destined to Reign 15th Anniversary Edition

Multiple Fractures Healed and Freed from Fear of Abandonment

Dear Pastor Prince, I hardly know how to speak of all that God has done for me since I began listening to your programs, CDs, DVDs, and reading your books a little over a year ago.  

At 59 years of age, I was recovering from multiple fractures in my right ankle and fibula. It required surgery that placed a metal plate and numerous screws in my bones.  

In the first month, my mobility was severely limited due to the severity of the fractures and my weakened physical condition. During that time, I was oppressed and tormented by strong feelings of fear of abandonment and rejection. I was also afraid of being unable to take care of myself. I experienced panic attacks almost every day. It was a very difficult time for my husband and me as we journeyed through this season of stress.

I was plagued by nightmares and became unable to sleep—due in part to pain medication, but also to the extreme stress and anxiety that I was experiencing. Some nights, all I could do was read the Bible until I was exhausted and finally able to sleep. We were greatly disappointed that we received very little help from our families and church, but continued to believe God to provide for all our needs—physical, emotional, and spiritual.

Before my accident, I rarely watched television during the day. But during my recovery, I found the need to watch Christian programs. One day, I was changing the channel and came to your program, Destined to Reign. After that day, I was “hooked.” Every day and evening, I watched your program, soaking up the words of life that you were speaking to my soul.

I soon ordered your book, Destined to Reign. For the first time in my life, I learned that it was not the Holy Spirit convicting me of sin, but my conscience. As I read through your book, it was like water to my soul. I read it through three times, each time coming away with more and more freedom and peace.  

There is much more that I could share about the journey, but more importantly, I want to share where I am today. At the age of 60, I am healthier, happier, and freer than I have ever been in my life. I am physically able to do more than I could do before my accident. It may not seem like much to some people, but I am able to clean my own home without assistance, carry groceries instead of using a cart, and be more socially active than I have in over 20 years.

In addition, I was delivered from the stronghold of the fear of abandonment, neglect and rejection that had oppressed me for most of my life. I was able to forgive those who physically, emotionally and sexually abused me, and repent of my disrespect, self-hatred, bitterness and resentment.  

Today, I am confident that my heavenly “Papa” loves me, not because of anything I have or have not done, but because of what Jesus did for me. I am continuing to learn that I am completely accepted in His Beloved Son, Jesus, and share this good news with others who will listen.  

My husband and I are evangelists in a disadvantaged community in Baltimore, Maryland, US. We are seeing God enlarge our ministry as a result of our emotional and spiritual healing, and we are believing Him to use us to share the gospel of grace to even more of His children.  

Pastor Prince, I have not enough words to thank you for your love, your ministry, and your faithfulness to share God’s love with His children. When I speak about you to others, the first thing I say about you is, “He loves Jesus more than anyone I know.” It is your love for Jesus that drew me to your ministry and continues to draw me. Your love for Jesus has opened the door for me to learn that He is altogether lovely, trustworthy, and gracious. Each day I spend loving Him and being loved by Him, I am better able to bless and serve others. Thank you.

We love you and pray that God will continue to bless and protect you and your family. May you continue to bring the light of the gospel of the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ to His bride—the church.


Patricia Smeak | Maryland, US

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